Birthday ko…

Nakakainis ka talaga… maghapon kong inantay ang birthday greetings mo… ngunit natapos ang araw na di ko narinig ang boses mo… kahit simpleng offline message sa YM, hindi mo ako na-alala… kahit nga sa FS at FB, wala ka din sinabi…

Di ko alam kong dapat ba akong magtampo… kahit alam ko nman kong anong totoo… ang hirap kasing turuan ng puso kong ito… ayaw makinig sa utak ko… sa tingin ko, may sarili itong mundo… at ikaw lang ang nandito…

Nasasaktan ako… nasasaktan ako… at sobrang naiinis sayo… hmmp!

I’ll Never Forget the LOVE that I shared with YOU…

I’ll Never Forget the LOVE that I shared with YOU

I know that someday I’ll get used to the fact that we’re not together anymore.

And that maybe we won’t be… ever again.

Time will tell.

In the meantime, though, you may be away from my arms, but you will never be

     far from my heart.

I know the love will never leave.

There are too many memories; there were so many precious moments and

      wonderful times to ever try to forget…

And I just want you to know that I will remember, for the rest of my days,

       how you helped me find some happiness and some truths and how you

       opened some beautiful doors.

I’ll never forget how good it was to share a part of my life with yours.

hurting… part 2

Matagal n yun, eh… matagal n matagal n… pero bakit gnun p din ang nararamdaman kung sakit….

July din nun… muli tayong nagkita… nung una, na-ilang ako… pero, nawala din yung pakiramdam n yun.. we started talking, updating each other of what had happen to both of us for the past years n hindi tayo nagkita… warm feeling starts to embrace me.. na-isip ko, gnun k din kaya?… but i was wrong.. i was assuming so much…  You handed a white envelope… tumalon ang puso ko, napangiti ako… sa isip ko, naalala mo ang birthday ko… but i was wrong.. it was your wedding invitation… the time suddenly stop… and for a while my heart stop beating to… i fake a smile and said congratulation…  said, i really have to go… it was nice meeting you again and whisper, i still love you…

Pagtalikod ko, tears start falling from my eyes… hindi ko alam, di ko mapigil… why do we have to meet again?… 

Matagal n yun… pero kpag na-aalala ko, naiiyak p rin ako… july kasi yun… birthday nya.. birthday ko… at higit sa lahat…. mahal ko p rin sya, hanggang ngayon…. 

hurting….

CROSSROADS……………

There are times in our life that the past keeps on knocking at our front door… and even though how hard we try to take no notice of it… the knocking keeps on getting louder and louder… until such a time that we can no longer ignore it…

Just a few weeks ago… His name just pop out from nowhere… and the “what-if” questions suddenly flashes in front of me… What if I asked him to stay? What if I just hold on to his promises? What if I gave him the second chance his asking?  Probably, I will be the one beside him… I will be the one caressing him… and I will be the one loving him for the rest of our life…

But as the saying goes, “nasa huli ang pagsisisi..”

 
CROSSROADS……………

  
Sometimes,when I look back and think of all the “could-have-beens” in my life,

I often wonder…………….

DID I MISS A ROAD SIGN?

AM I ON THE RIGHT TRACK?

CROSSROADS………

They happen all the time saying goodbye to some, choosing only one.

Letting go,holding on…….settling for now…but facing what must come…

Yes, in life we all reach a crossroad sometimes.

We make painful decisions and take some risks as we pursue our dreams.

But one should not stay at the CROSSROADS too long.

For even the birds have to leave their nests sometimes and learn how to fly.

Life’s road is long and rough, and there are stretches when one has to go it all alone.

And should you meet the cross at the road, be consoled.

Yes, more often than not, the road less traveled will surely bring you home.

Face the light and the shadow falls behind you. Turn your back and the shadow stays in front of you.

Indeed, the truth hurts, but it will surely set you free. The bitter pangs of parting will give birth to

another moment called………..GROWING………..

So grow on…until it’s time for you to move on……….and face the crossroads again, knowing that…..

GOD LOVES YOU

Be strong at the crossroads; Embrace the CROSS and the ROAD.

The Lord is at the cross,at the road, at all your CROSSROADS. 

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Nice poem, noh!  narinig ko yang poem n yan sa “In her shoes” n movie ni cameron diaz…  This was the poem i email to my friends nung dumating yung time n umalis ako…. Just want to share it.. n-mi-miss ko kasi sila…

can i HUG you?

Monday, July 13, 2009 at 3:12PM (New Jersey, USA)

Birthday p lang nya ngayon…. want to call him and tell him this question… if only i could be there in just a blink of an eye… ginawa ko n sana.. just to give him my big and warm hug for his birthday….

Iba kasi talaga yung feeling ng embrace, eh… for me, embrace always makes me safe… parang everything will always be alright…

Kaya my warm and big “spiritual” hug is my gift to him… to let him feel that i am always here and that i will never learn to forget him… 

Mid-Year

July is a special month for me… 

First reason, kasi kalahati n nman ng taon… ang bilis talaga ng araw… bukas lang.. PASKO n nman…

Second reason, birth month ko kasi i2, eh… birth month din ng friendship kong c “aileen” & “tess”… birth month din ni “apalepex”    at birth month din ng kuya ko, pati n rin ng pinsan ko… ang daming may birthday… yehey…

Nag-sign n pala ako ng contract dun sa bago kong work… nung June 30…. 

A love story….

I used to teach sa isang Phil. International School… somewhere sa ibang bansa… di ko n sasabihin kong saan… basta, dyan lang… I used to teach computer subjects and Accounting Principle I…..

I still have communications with some of my old students.. most of them are closed to me.. I have this special student n tawagin n lang nating “angel”…. last nyte, she buzz me asking for help… kailangan daw nilang gumawa ng short story for filipino subject… sabi ko, ano bang gusto mong theme ng maikling kwento mo.. sabi nya, love story daw…

So, nag-isip ako… ano kayang maganda plot ang maibigay sa kanya for her to have something to begin with…..   Napangiti ako… naisip ko, love story ko n lang.. love story nmin ni “Alex”…. so, that’s it… I summarize my love story to her… maganda nman yung nagawa nya.. and I think she will get a high grade for that…

A reminder to all of us…

Last wednesday… may nag-sagutan sa loob ng office ng boss nmin… gusto ko sanang i-share sa kanilang dalawa ito.. kaya lang.. sa ngayon, di ko pa alam ang email address nila… and i need to translate it to english for them to understand it, ibang lahi kasi, eh…  But just want to share it p rin with you guys…

This is a very good reminder for all of us…

HOW TO CONTROL EMOTIONS
 
This  would  give you guides on how to control your emotions towards your better-half,   friends,  officemates  and  all  the  people  around  you,  especially  your “boss“. The rules of practicing  ”ugaling langit, ugaling  kaaya-aya” :
 
#1  Ang naunang magalit ang may karapatang magalit. Pag naunahan ka na ng  galit niya, tumahimik ka na lang muna. 
 
 #2  Walang  taong  nag-aaway  mag-isa.  Pag hindi kayo sumagot o pumatol,  titigil din daw ang taong nakikipag- away sa inyo. 
 
 #3 Ang taong galit, ‘bingi.’ If someone is angry, wala raw pinakikinggan,  so,  don’t try to explain and fight back. Hindi ka niya iintindihin dahil  wala siyang naririnig kundi ang sarili nya. 
 
 #4  Ang  taong  galit, ‘abnoy.’ Ayon sa pastor, Biblical daw ito? because  the  Lord  said  when  He was crucified, “Father, patawarin mo sila dahil  hindi nila alam ang kanilang ginagawa.”  Modern  term  for these kinds of people are abnoys, so you better not get  angry para huwag kang matawag na abnoy. 
You  should  also know and realize that the persons who make your day bad  are jewel, because you need them for you to mature.  Hangga’t andyan daw sila at kinaiinisan mo, ibig sabihin, immature ka pa.  God  will  not take away those people; it’s for you to take away your bad  feelings towards them.  You’ll  know  na  mature  ka  na  pag  dumating ‘yung time na hindi ka na  naiinis  sa  mga taong ito because you have learned to accept them and to  have patience with them.
 
#5 Finally, the best part of this is to tell yourself na, because of this
person,  ”I  will  grow  mature,”  and that DAHIL SA CONTRIBUTION NIYA SA
MATURITY MO, KUKUNIN DIN SYA NI LORD.

HAVE A NICE DAY!

I wish you enough…

Going to my email inbox, nakita ko itong email n ito sa archieve folder ko… isa ito sa mga tinago kong email kasi someone important in my life share this to me…. and if i feel sad and low, i always read it…. just want to share it with you…

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye. 

Rules for Living…

*If u open it, close it.

*If u turn it on, turn it off.

*If u unlock it, lock it up.

*If u break it, admit it.

*If u can’t fix it, call in someone who can.

*If u borrow it, return it.

*If u value it, take care of it.

*If u make a mess, clean it up.

*If u move it, put it back.

*If it belongs to someone else and u want to use it, get permission.

*If u don,t know how to operate it, leave it alone.

*If it’s none of ur business, don’t ask questions.

*If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.

*If it will brighten someone’s day, say it.

*If it will tarnish someone’s reputation, keep it to yourself…

SHAKE IT OFF and TAKE A STEP UP

-This is not written by me but just wanna share it

One day a farmer’s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do… Finally he decided since the animalwas old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway, it just wasn’t worth it to retrieve the donkey. So, the farmer invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed shovels, and began to shovel dirt into the well.

All the other farm animals were very upset about this, because the donkey was their friend. But they discovered there was nothing they could do to help him. At first, when the donkey realized what was happening, he cried horribly. Then, to everyone’s amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well, and was astonished at what he saw.

With every shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off, and take a step up on the dirt as it piled up. As the farmer’s neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well, and trotted off!

MORAL: Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. But each trouble can be a stepping stone. What happens to you isn’t nearly as important as how you react to it. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not giving up!

Shake it off, and take a step up!

First Love….

Sabi nila first love never dies…..

i was in 4th year high school when I experienced my first love… he was a classmate of mine… i wasn’t really expecting him to like me… ang tipo nya kasing mga girls yung chinese mestiza or kaya nman tall and pretty… eh, ako… di n mukhang chinese, di p mestiza… pero super sweet nman ako.. yun ang sabi nya…
it was february, valentines day, when he told me n may feelings sya sa akin… then he gave me a rose… then he asked kung pwede daw bang sya n lang ang escort ko sa JS Prom nmin… di ako nakasagot agad… i was surprised… naisip ko, baka isang “YARI KA” moment yun.. nakakahiya nman if i jump to the situation agad and say yes… tapos isang malaking “JOKE” lang pala… kaya sabi ko sa kanya, just ask me again tomorrow, i’ll think about it… feeling pretty ang lola mo.. kunwari mag-iisip p… pero super “OO” n kaya ang sagot ko…

aba, mukhang seryoso ang “MOKONG”… at tinanong nga ako ulit… di ko p man na-ibaba ang gmit ko sa table ko, lumapit at nagtanong n agad… “PAYAG” n daw b ako… ano daw ang sagot ko…. tinignan ko sya… I said, “GOOD MORNING” with my sweetest smile… naisip ko.. “BAHALA n c BATMAN…” and said “YES”… natuwa nman sya, nakita ko yun sa ngiti nya… then he said, “i’ll pick u up at 8…”… “I LOVE YOU…” pahabol nya…

kakaibang feeling… parang everything around me is so beautiful… so nice… so sweet.. heaven sabi nga nila…

WE became officially ON on our JS Prom… ibang feelings talaga.. as if butterflies were inside my stomach… its making me sick.. its making me smile… nkaka-loka…

But like other good things… ours also had it end… after a year and a half… we decided to go on our separate ways… and the saddest thing is that we didn’t end-up as friends…
It took me almost 4 years to get him out of my system.. he was my FIRST BOYFRIEND.. his kiss was my FIRST KISS… his love was “MY FIRST LOVE”…

Yup, para sa akin…. FIRST LOVE NEVER DIES… After so many-many-many years… I still remember him… I still remember that feelings… and  i know that deep in my HEART… this FIRST LOVE will never be forgotten…